Captains Log...

So it has been a good while since I have sat down and have a good chat with u blogster. Thanks for being there for these thoughts that sometimes just can not be talked about with friends. One of those blog moments, ya know!

Any who...so nemo whats got you BENT up now? Whats going through the fishmans mind right now, at this very moment? Great Question...well, its the whole thing about finishing in fourth...uh....well...you know? Dont ya? Finishing in fourth place, which is the last place and the only place that I have seemed to acquire a spot for. Once again I really can not get every feeling onto this blogspot to match my very thought at hand. I wish there was a way to like place a type of sensor or gadget where your put your hands against the computer and you feel what someone is writing. Beat for beat! Its like the things I always want seem so hard or so far to come by! AND STOP TELLING ME I WILL BE OKAY!!! EFF ALL DAT SUGAR HONEY ICE TEA!!!! So if you are one of the few to read this please dont place that into the comments box...cause I might just send you a nasty email or bash your blog! JK, but, no on the real, dont say it...Moving on...

Ladies you know what you want, right? You know what you want to do with your life for the most part. I mean there (eyes getting heavy) are a few discrepencies but for the most part you got a grip on things. At least I know they would as oppose to men. Maybe? Well you know forget what you are looking for so I can be one of those INSTANT ATTRACTION type characters! I am friggin tired of having to jig-a-boo my way into someones heart. So without dancing, stepping, and rapping I am down about 80 levels in this video game of life and relationships. Sometimes you wanna be the one to get stopped and not your homeboy for the 1000th time this week while you sit back because he had the more eye catching aspects of life! (no homo)...(tall, red, braids, muscles, etc.) its the truth. Im use to the people I pursue giving me lame or sad excuses and pursuing the more "physically attractive" to only know deep down in there brains and souls that he will either give the lame excuse or he is probably not even feeling you for the moment or even remotely but only for enough time to get what he needs and then he goes OUTTIE!! Yea, thats what you want...? Eff that other dude who wants to provide, take care of you, treat you like a queen and what does that guy usually get MISERY, LIES, DECEIT, PAIN, and anything else that can ripped from his attributes of an underrated black brother.

I have dealt with the situation since ELEMENTARY SCHOOL (I KID YOU NOT). Remember the girl from the first captains log...did you read that one? Ah well! Prolly not...any who basically I liked her A-LOT...she was the first girl I kissed on the cheek and all that bla bla...this young lady definitely pursued the "taller and popular" dude as oppose to the person who knew her inside and out and understood her like none other. Yea, it was elementary but I had the heart of a Lover that was an adult almost. The kind of love like "I am going to make it back through war" type of woman. Being sheisted by all the more "cooler" individuals. Story of my life, decade, or eva eva!! Its just sad sometimes you know because girls look for they "want" as oppose to there "needs." Why wouldnt you want a man to put you on the most high and worthy of thrones and treat you like a deity? WHY HUH??? ANSWER ME?!?! You get what you ask for and you still turn things down...there is just no ending to the madness sometimes...when will you realize that your "wants" are only temporary, HUH?!?! When will you realize that...sigh...I dont know blog, like, it just does not get any clearer. Yea Yea things will come around, things will look up, times will change and things get better...yea yea, when all that starts happening then I will gladly say you kno what Mutherlovers "YALL WERE RIGHT!" But, until then...you guys keep all that uplifting talk on the hush hush.

No disrespect to the viewers but its just confusing. Nice Guys really do finish last man. I put that on EVERYTHING! Whats the purpose for us? your just gonna use us and continue to listen to talk about your horrible ex's, the kind of relationhship you want and all that other Jazz. My heart grows weary (hope I used that term correctly or spelled that word right) and I understand that patience is a virtue, but waiting just hurts you as well. I dont kno blog, I guess I digress...The sun is coming out...So many things that I just will never understand...sigh (and ad a few more sighs as well)